I wrote the first sentence of this blog seventeen times.I hate that I care what other people think. I admit that I am nervous that people may read this and judge me for it. A blog is both personal and a public affair; particularly for me as I use this space to hash out how I feel and connect myself to those that I care about.
Writing has always helped me find clarity. When I write it down, it makes whatever I'm feeling more real. When I put in on paper, I can't deny how I feel anymore. While I recognize that this is such a public space to work out my feelings, I question why YOU would go out of your way to read this if you didn't have a personal investment in me?
I'm still struggling with this first post. How open can I be with myself and to others on here? NO. Better Question: How open do I want to be with myself here and to others? And should I go ahead and re-post all my entries from before?